Love Notes to Yourself

I am such a romantic person. I love love notes. Messages that express the sentiment of how someone feels about you and vice versa. A love quote on the pillow that says all the things you want to say but maybe can't put into words. Ahhhhhh. LOL. I think lately I've been missing that. Like really missing it. I decided to give me some of that energy because hell, I wanna hear it.

Sometimes I think we get so caught up in how we have always been, the way things have always been done, and how we have felt that it normalizes things you may not necessariliy even want to deal with or ways you don't even want to be. We just get comfortable in that space and then neglect to check in and really give you what you need.

Today, I caught myself in a tender moment. I naturally expressed my vulnerability. I didn't over think I just felt. Lately I've been so stoic and a little preoccupied with goals, and other things I'm doing. Some of my actions have been deliberate because I've been choosing to not think about or feel emotions that I need to express. The release is all you need most times.

When I express myself, I realized that I have become much more intentional on how I speak to me about me and it's been actually very productive for me. I've been accomplishing and conquering everything I've wanted to do. The reason this is so is because I believe what I tell me. My mind is listening. It absorbs the feelings I feel, the thoughts, the real meaning behind actions and everything behind the scenes. It becomes relevant when you begin to see the things you twant marerialize. It's like Yessss, When did that happen? Or wow, damn this go as planned? or is it the polar opposite and you're negative thoughts are showing up in your life and causing you frustration, hardship and strife.

Listen chile, I've been on both ends of the spectrum. Hell depending on the day, all in one day. Don't judge me shit. Let me have my moment of truth.

I've had more of the latter than I had of feeding me the nourishing and nurturing thoughts that I need. What do I mean? sometimes as part of your self-care, you can't neglect the important parts. Loving yourself includes the self-motivation, the words you speak over yourself, the things you think when you look in the mirror, the way you really feel about yoursefl.

If we are being honest, many of us don't take care of ourselves the way that we should. We don't check our thoughts at the do'

We live we laugh we love and connect with people that we allow to be responsible for our hearts and tending to our emotional needs and become gravely disappointed when the love isn't given how we want it or we feel empty when that relationship becomes unfullfilling or it's no longer there. Now there's a void. Now many things go into why that is the case. We won't go down that rabbit hole right now. But the point I'm getting at is that our emotions and mental well-being lies in our own hands. What I'm learning is to be more tender with me about me. I tend to deal with things in the realest of realest ways. I deal with things in harsh realities, meh, mainly as a protective measure so that I can see what's happening beforehand and protect myself from prossible endings. Girllllll

Exhausting asf right? I mean who has time to come up with these scenarios that probably won't happen but you need these things to live/survive. Yea, no. I now reject all that dumb shit. Listen, I can't focus on the what-if's when I'm working on now. Stay present and focus on what does Christen need for Christen today. Yes, I still plan for the future because I have one, a great one may I add but the chaos of thoughts and things need to be put to rest.

But back to what I mentioned earlier the love you give to you is so necessary. Your words have value and when you play them back and they feel good, it just hits differently. I guess I"m in a space right now of noone can love me better than me. And that's not problematic, it's factual. You show others in fact, how they should treat you. I find myself giving me these motivational, inspirational, yet loving talks. I even write myself notes, full of affirmations and love and it's what I need to see when I need to see it. Those words feel so good because it came from me. and it's been so filling lately. Listen cause if we are being honest, for years, I waited for all the right words from people who I loved or thought I loved and it turned into a need for validation. And once I didn't get it, how I wanted it, I was bitter or just didn't feel right and would seek that outside validation. Just doing dumb stuff, chile. I digress. Coming from one who needed that external validation to interanlaize it and give me what I needed feels so good. Here's a bit of the love letters to me.

Dear Christen,

I was looking in my phone and came across some recent photos. The look in your eyes is so full of love, aspiration, and motivation. I see you so much differently. Chile, have we come a long way. You're doing it. You're really doing it. The timidness is subsiding and you're getting back to the fearless, bold, adventurous and ambitious person you once were. I know things have caused you pause. Caused you to be afraid of taking risks and being your real self. Don't ever be afraid to keep going. Those were detours along the route. Be this girl everyday, in every area of your life. Allow her to operate fully. You're capable of doing ALL the things you desire. You deserve it girl. You did that. No reason to look back and feel like you let yourself down because you didn't. You are who you are, where you are, and how you are not by chance. Be patient with yourself. Don't get consumed with time. Your best weapon is your ability to innovate and implement quickly. Do it. Do it now. Do it then, but don't get so consumed with needing to have it so bad that you make rushed decisions. You're not desparate for anything and you don't have a need that hasn't already been provided. I trust you, homegirl. You know exactly what you want and need. Don't let up. Don't compromise. Now is the time.

You don't have to be so strong all the time. Your strength is that you have the ability to be resilient. Because you can be resillient it's ok to be vulnerable, love. Vulnerable doesn't mean you're anyone's fool, you're just able to showcase that you are human. Vulnerability is not a bad thing. You don’t have to be so strong all the time. You also don’t have to let everyone in but your safe spaces are safe. Let yourself be free there.

It’s ok to let the softer side of you show. Let your feminine energy flow. You’re talented, you’re bright and you’re absolutely amazing. It’s ok to believe what you say about you. You’re only just beginning to tap into all that you are. Keep going. Don’t hold back. Don’t stop. Don’t worry. You’re limitless. You know what to do, now just follow through. Let it and let it all fall in line. Stay focused and remember you can and you will, because you are. 😌

Do all the things, Boo. You've got notes full of ideas, goals and dreams. Time waits for no one. Don't worry about how, just keep pushing those plans. Because you believe, I believe. And your due season is NOW. You get exactly what you believe. You're phenomenal and never forget that. I love you and I'm so proud of you. I'll always have your back

-All of my Love

Christen

Remember words have power. What you speak over you is everything. Show the world how to treat you but giving you a little more of the love that you need. And give yourself some grace. Remember you're listening.

TIl Next Time.

xoxoxo

Confidently Chris10